Saturday, January 31, 2009 @ 1:37 AM
i dont know how long more can my heart waiti dont know how much more can my heart takecos baby, i need you here right now
Thursday, January 29, 2009 @ 10:28 PM
The story of 4 candles
The Four Candles burned slowly.
Their ambiance was so soft you could hear them speak...
The first candle said, "I Am Peace, but these days, nobody wants to keep me lit."
Then Peace's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
The second candle said, "I Am Faith, but these days, I am no longer indispensable."
Then Faith's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
Sadly the third candle spoke, "I Am Love and I haven't the strength to stay lit any longer."
"People put me aside and don't understand my importance.
They even forget to love those who are nearest to them."
And waiting no longer, Love went out completely.
Suddenly...
A child entered the room and saw the three candles no longer burning.
The child began to cry,
"Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit until the end."
Then the Fourth Candle spoke gently to the little boy,
"Don't be afraid, for I Am Hope, and while I still burn,
we can re-light the other candles."
With shining eyes, the child took the Candle of Hope
and lit the other three candles.
Never let the Flame of Hope go out.
With Hope in your life, no matter how bad things may be,
Peace, Faith and Love may shine brightly once again.
Author Unknown
Saturday, January 24, 2009 @ 3:58 AM
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
had to wish all in advance as in just a few more hours time, i will be heading to malaysia to visit my relatives. yes.. if u have not known, my dad is a malaysian. gg to be travelling for a few hours to get to my late grandfather's house. its like my family tradition to always go bacck there every CNY. it is always damm fun with the real kind of fire crackers to play with but i am sure i will miss my bed and toilet.
havent slept for 36 hours yet i dont feel that tired. its funny and werid. hahas. anyway, i thought with a psp to accompany me on the trip later on, it wont be that bad.. but guess what! i dont know how to load videos.. SIGH.. defeats all purpose.. i cant even listen to affabel.. hahahs. shall wait till my return.. hahhas.
ok.. i gotta go now.. get a half an hour rest before waking up and embarking on my road trip.. hahahs. love ya! will be back within 3 days i think. hahahs
Monday, January 12, 2009 @ 10:01 PM
i am so dead.
i spoilt the laptop's keys.. the alphabet after B and my
omg
@ 12:58 AM
i saw a shooting star and i made a silly wish for you
:)
Friday, January 09, 2009 @ 11:56 PM
i miss this i-am-just-slacking-at-home-with-nothing-to-do feeling
yes. i am simply living in self denial for tonight thinking i have nothing to do. no projects and nothing in this world matters then just i, me and myself. i am just gg to cut myself some slack cos this week, esp yesterday night has been such a horrible week. one travel & leisure project is enough to make me jump up from earth to mars a thousand times. yes. and i fell down yesterday! RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY TUTOR! tell me its embarassing or what. and i wore a dress! thank God for the invention of shorts.
BUT. it was this week that i realised the really true value of a friend. i was seriously emotionally, physically drained with all the staying up of late nights and all. when i knew i had to re do my project like one day befoer submission, i nearly went bonkers. its really pure stress. everyone that i talk to online.. i merely said a few words. "i am damm stress. please pray for me." i prayed for God's peace and wisdom for like a thounsand times cos to redo a my project in a day which i did within a week its pure madness. i was really negative and down.. but i just keep myself gg on.. manage to last through the WHOLE NIGHT with one hour of sleep and heading to school for lessons till 5pm today.. i wouldnt have done this without MATTHEW NG! :)))
once again, matthew ng! my life is seriously indebted to you. he actually helped me to do some parts of my project though he isnt even in the same elective as me. when he can actually go to bed and sleep, he accompanied me through the entire night. as i rant all my fustrations out, thanks for just being there and helping me to stay positive. without those encouragement, i guess i would have given up. though i didnt entertainment for half of the time while you were on the phone with me, you didnt hang up. thanks dude! ps. can u please just bring our IC out whenever you go for driving. goodness. hahahas.
Monday, January 05, 2009 @ 11:47 PM
Happy new year to all!
i know this is kinda late but hope all of you began your new year well. i hope i would say i did but no, i did not. life is full of ups and downs. this is just one of my down period. those who were with me that day will know (thanks so much for your patience) and especially matthew. that day much be the most shocking day of his 18 years of living as he heard a different side of me. well dude, once again i wanna say, thanks for being there. you are God-sent. you are chairman of my ABD. (ask me for the full name if you wanna know. hahas. its lame)
on the bright side, things are slowing down and taking pace. these few starting weeks of 2009 i guess will be weeks of meditation and strength gaining. like what matt said, "stop putting others in front. how about yourself." i have decided since cat told me the same thing on saturday. i guess i brought serving to the other extreme but no matter what, i still love to serve and will never ever stop serving God. yes, maybe methods of serving God will change, but as long as its the same God i serve, its all alright. pastor always say "the message is sacred but the method is not" things are not confirm. need to speak to jeff, another spiritual mentor of mine. i thank God for putting great, spiritual and awesome leaders above me.
A new year, yes, a new beginning. a fresh start. resolutions will be up soon(by this week i promise). i will be so so BUSY with projects and all. looking at my pretty organiser, life is going to be hectic. but His grace will see me through.
"For whatever a man sows, that he will also reap"